01 May 2012 Leave a Comment
It feels like it’s gone. My passion. I have no spirit at all. How could you continue life when it feels so flat ? No exciting at all…
- Mind Labyrinth
Dear B,
15 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
in quotes
“May you have warm words on a cool evening, a full moon on a dark night, and a smooth road all the way to your door.”
-Irish Toast
A Thought
01 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
Did everything I do to you isn’t enough at all?
I’m speechless against that.
Did I too bad? Too harsh? Too rude?
I know I was an ignorant person. But the good news is , you completely changed me. Maybe you just don’t see it.
I return to be someone whom too needy, too whiny, jealousy, too weak. I hate that. But I guess that’s the original me. All act I put all these couple years were almost gone.
“Did everything I do to you isn’t enough at all?”
How about everything I gave to you? Isn’t that enough at all. You were the first. You knew that.
And It just breaks my heart hearing you said something like that.
Suddenly, I recall the day we first met. How you tried to get to know me, buying me things, caring for me. And those things were lovely. I finally thought “Maybe him…” You totally different. You are just too kind.
Our journey from the start wasn’t good I say. Totally ruined. It was hard to move on. But I tried and tried and well I made it… 
Maybe you thought you’re the one that needs me. The one who gave many thoughts about us… but I might be the one too.
Just because I almost never begged you to be beside me doesn’t mean I don’t want you right? So let me say this.
I do want you.
I do longing for you.
I do love you.
“Did everything I do to you isn’t enough at all?”
I’m speechless against that.
I guess everything has changed. It is natural.
I changed. You changed. We changed.
And maybe this time we need to move on as well…
Love yourself
15 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
My right ear is ringing. In medical terms that’s called tinnitus . I thought it caused by my wisdom tooth which needed to be extracted. So i did. I did odontectomy last year. But then it is still ringing. Then i thought again , “ah maybe because the swimming. The water comes in.” so I lean on one side trying to get the water out from my ear. But no water at all. So i just let it be since it was not that disturbing. But lately the ringing sound becomes louder and louder and well not so comforting. So yesterday I decided to come to the doctor.
He checked my earlobe and ear drum but nothing happened there. Then he took a tuning fork to check my inner ear. Left ear check. I hear a sound. Right ear check. No sound. Yep, problem found. My cochlea is disturbed.
The inner ear includes both the organ of hearing (the cochlea) and a sense organ that is attuned to the effects of both gravity and motion (labyrinth or vestibular apparatus). The balance portion of the inner ear consists of three semicircular canals and the vestibule. The inner ear is encased in the hardest bone of the body. Within this ivory hard bone, there are fluid-filled hollows. Within the cochlea are three fluid filled spaces: the scala tympani, the scala vestibuli and the scala media. The eighth cranial nerve comes from the brain stem to enter the inner ear. When sound strikes the ear drum, the movement is transferred to the footplate of the stapes, which presses it into one of its fluid-filled ducts through the oval window of cochlea . The fluid inside this duct is moved, flowing against the receptor cells of the Organ of Corti, which fire. These stimulate the spiral ganglion, which sends information through the auditory portion of the eighth cranial nerve to the brain.
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But thanks God this is just a mild disturbance. I am forbidden to use my right ear when answering the phone, listening to iPod , well everything that could burden my right ear with noises. Doctor also give me vitamins that could help repair my ear nerve.
I always said “i hate smoking” “i don’t like people who smoke” because i think they don’t love theirself. They filled their lung with smoke , and get disease, which finally make them die afterall. But now I realize not only smoking could do harm to yourself even your little habits like long phone conversation, listening to your mp3 player in high volume, well everything also could harm yourself. And now my ear is almost damaged because of that “little habit”. So , guys let’s pay more attention to our habit. If you are a smoker, try to reduce it a little by little. Remember your lung. If you love sitting for hours in front of computer, try not to. Remember your eyes and the radiation it brought to your brain. If you love high heels, try not to wear them too often. Remember your foot. Like that, pay attention to those little things just so you remember how to love yourself.
Cheers!
Love at The First Sight
07 Mar 2012 2 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: Fashion, heels, pumps, shoes, women
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It’s Beautiful…
Perbedaan Dulu Ama Sekarang
28 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: college life, Daily life, Quote
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The Irony of The Elders (Mirisnya Generasi Tua Indonesia)
27 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: Daily life, expression, feeling
“Generasi Muda Indonesia sudah rusak”.
Kalimat seperti itu sudah sering aku denger dari perkataan orang-orang tua, blog, tulisan-tulisan yang beredar maupun di internet maupun di majalah dan koran. Kami sudah kehilangan norma-norma kami. Lebih berani, ga takut sama orang tua. Katanya seperti itu…
Zaman berubah begitu pula dengan manusianya. Tapi daripada menggunakan kata berubah mungkin lebih ke kata “berkembang” menurut aku. Generasi muda Indonesia katanya individualistis. Mereka hanya memikirkan diri sendiri. Katanya. Kami bukannya individualistis. Kami hanya menjadi lebih independen. Tidak tersenyum pada orang asing di jalan dikatakan sombong, tidak tahu sopan santun. Apa salahnya tidak tersenyum pada orang asing? Toh memang tidak kenal. Lagipula mengapa harus marah? Padahal tidak ada pihak yang dirugikan secara fisik.
Kemaren siang aku mengantri check in pesawat di airport. Awalnya baik-baik saja. Di barisan paling depan ada rombongan yang cukup banyak. Dan ya biasanya rombongan bukannya berbaris rapi malah berkerumun sendiri. Mungkin situasi seperti ini dimanfaatkan lagi oleh beberapa orang “tua” yang tiba-tiba datang dari arah samping dan diam-diam menyerobot ke dalam barisan.
Kami melihat mereka. Mereka melihat kami. Mereka menjauhi pandangan kami.
Melihat mereka seperti itu seperti melihat seseorang yang memang sudah ketahuan mencontek saat ujian tapi ketika pandangan mereka bertemu dengan penjaga ujian lalu pura-pura melihat ke arah lain. Persis seperti itu.
Aku tertawa dalam hati. Banyaknya petuah dari generasi tua ke generasi muda bagaimana mereka kehilangan rasa nasionalisnya lah apa lah, tapi mereka, budaya antri saja tidak mengerti. Tenang saja pak bu, kami bukannya kehilangan rasa nasionalis kami. Kami mungkin lebih nasionalis dari kalian, hanya saja kami punya cara kami sendiri. Zaman sudah berubah.
Tanpa rasa bersalah orang-orang tua itu pergi dengan tiket sudah di tangan. Kami yang mengantri di belakang hanya bisa mendengus.
Adalagi peristiwa yang paling berbekas diingatanku ketika sedang meneduh karena hujan bersama beruang. Ternyata ada orang “tua” yang sedang merokok disana. Jaraknya terlalu dekat. Asap rokok menusuk ke hidung. Aku benci asap rokok. Rasanya jadi sulit bernapas.
Beruang yang mungkin melihat keadaanku seperti itu segera saja meminta orang “tua” tersebut untuk merokok agak jauh dari kami.
“Pak merokoknya bisa agak ke pinggir, teman saya ini sakit asma”
“KAMU MAU NGELARANG SAYA MEROKOK?! INI TEMPAT UMUM YA! TERSERAH SAYA MAU MEROKOK APA TIDAK!”
Kami berdua kaget melihat pandangan orang tersebut. Mungkin lebih tepatnya shock.
“Ngelarang? Engga pak. Tidak ada yang mau melarang. Teman saya ini asma, cuma minta tolong agak menjauh sedikit”
“…kamu ini, enak saja ngelarang-ngelarang saya buat merokok. Ini kan tempat umum..” jawabnya sambil menjauh pergi.
Mendengar seperti itu aku bukannya marah. Tapi terkejut. Hidup bukan hanya kita sendiri, masih ada orang lain. Karena itu kita harus mengenal kata “toleransi” . Kita belajar itu ketika kelas 1 SD.
Tidak mengertikah Anda dengan kata toleransi pak?
Beruang marah dengan respon orang “tua” tersebut. Mungkin kalau tidak kutahan bisa saja mereka berkelahi. Tapi aku tidak suka perkelahian. Apalagi di depan umum. That’s just not classy.
Mungkin generasi kami terlihat terlalu bebas di mata kalian. Tapi sebenarnya tidak. Ini hanya tuntutan zaman. Memang beberapa tidak baik, tapi bukan berarti semuanya kan?
Begitu juga dengan generasi tua, yang saya sebutkan disini mungkin adalah beberapa yang “tidak baik” tapi belum tentu semuanya.
Tapi daripada menuliskan betapa rusaknya generasi muda Indonesia mungkin ada baiknya kita juga melihat ke generasi sebelumnya. Seperti kata peribahasa “Buah jatuh tidak jauh dari pohonnya” 
anime and book freak. writer. photographer. dentistry student.
